22/6/2006
2006-06-22
i almost didnt cry. tears are useless. and i doubt if this is worth crying for.
i've made sure i didnt misinterprete any single word that day. i remember your answer, “Yes”. neat and clean. is that what you do for your lies?
your words pop up my head from time to time. the good ones, the bad ones, the loveliest ones, the ugliest ones. all lead to the dull ache in my heart. the inevitable decision i made. yes, i made my choice. you are what you are. though the extreme believes of yours left me in the coldest iceland i've never been to. maybe i was just believing in it too much. perfecting you to be the One i'm searching for.
i need to stop asking myself why you lied. no, i dont want any answers from you. it doesnt matter anymore, does it? you are what you are. and it's better be now or never.
now, with the ache deep in me, i'm here.
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Tomorrow is another day, fighting!!!
基基 — 2006年06月24日 12:45 上午